A Quickie

January 1, 2010 Cindy

Today is January 1, 2010. It’s 10 AM and still (more or less) quiet in the house. I am listening to myself think and have come to a few realizations.

1) All the concerns over the holidays being perfect (or close), all the worrying about where we’d put the tree (indeed, whether or not there would even be a tree), the anxiety over how we would juggle Howie’s birthday with a New Year’s Eve teen event were just brain noise. Looking back, they were a complete waste of energy brought about by my desire to be in control. As I sit amonst the dissheveled Christmas tree, and the displaced furniture, and the aftermath of last night’s bon fire, I am aware and thankful that God is in control and I really need to REST in that knowledge. Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10 Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 I know these truths! Why do I have such a hard time letting God be GOD?

2) I am content. Right now, there is nothing that I need that I don’t already possess. In fact, there’s nothing else that I even want right now. Yes, there is laundry that needs to be done and I’m sure there are dishes in the sink but they are unimportant at this moment. When I’ve had this same thought in the past, I called myself lazy and then felt guilty. Luke 10:38-42 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself ? Tell her to help me!” “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” I am having a Mary moment. Martha can wait! Is Jesus telling me that it’s ok to have a messy house??? Sounds like a working mom’s dream!

3) I started my day slowly today. Woke up, said good morning to the Lord, greeted my husband, went back to bed, woke up again, read today’s entry in my daily bible, took some notes…and now I sit contemplating God’s truths at work in my life. I want everyday to be like today. I feel happy. No, better than that, I feel very loved and close to God. This is joy! Jude 24-25 To him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy– to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen.